i'm here!~

well...got no reason...i feel like blogging right now...i read someone's blog before this....and i really want to shout out loud that i'm here for u....i dont mind lend u my ear...i want to share everything with u...i want to make u happy...but why why and why...u never tell me all these shit...why i have to know all these through the others' mouth and from ur blog that u set up just for him?do u treat me as ur fren?do u?i really so wonder...do u know how worry am i when i know all these happen to u?do u know how much i miss ur laughter before?few times i really want to ask u about that....but i still act i know nothing...because i want u to tell me all these urself...but end up u never plan to tell me...i really hope u can get through all these soon...he's not the whole part of ur life...go one step forward..u will know how stupid u are now..and see ur surrounding..u got a lot of friends....for sure...i will be there too...please...dont cry again because of him...i can tell u it is not worth...u deserve better guy...believe me...everything will be fine...u're not alone!~wake up and just think all these just a nightmare....my dear...tomorrow will be a better day!~

complicated!~

long time didnt update my blog...no big changes to my life but with some small changes...seem to get myself back into SMS world...holding my handphone the whole day...click click click...end up with a fucking expensive phone bill...luckily havent receive my dad's call yet...while i'm typing this post...i keep thinking what the point to update my blog?i still can't figure it out right now...so i guess when i get the answer...i will update my blog again!`see ya

A sweet sms

Tongtong just woke up cause today is sunday...usually is a boring day for me...but today a bit different..when i still sleeping..my phone msg tone ring...and i have a look at the sms...after i see the msg...totally awake...thank you very much...it's very touching...i feel that i am not alone now!!~~u know who u are...anyway...thank!~for those who added my msn...i think u guy should remember i set a nick before..."tell me i'm not alone pls"...after i set this nick...a lot of ppl come to me and tell me i am not alone..i know some of them just like kidding...but i can feel there are some really meant to tell me that i'm not alone...and i appreciate it very much...when i feel weak...when i feel bad...when my sky colour becomes grey....u guy's care and love light up my life...FRIENDS ROCK!!~finally EE1 finished...i know i screw up my IS...last subject..no mood to study for it....but hope the result wont be too bad...now i trying to enjoy my one week break...everyday i wish to sleep until very very late...then i no need to think what can i do to the whole day...well...now i feel like wanna sing k!!~~i want to shout out all my stress and unhappy moment before this!~~btw, anyone want to shop?if u do...please give me a call!~~i desperate for shopping right now!~~so many stuff i want to buy...i want to reward myself for no reason!~

lastest Tongtong's life

well...lynn...finally i update my blog..everytime i got many ideas in my mind what to blog...but when i start to type it...everything like gone...my mind blank..i think some of u facing the same problem right?haha...my life now...only condo, college, pyramid, kelana jaya...that all..argh...boring!!~~On the bday of someone(dont know who's that but his bday let me have a day off)thank you anyway...haha...i hang out with a friend...not so close but we can share everything..when a girl walk alone with a guy...is it everyone think they are couple?whatever..we spent whole day at mid valley...i helped him to choose present for his mum...that why i got a lunch for free...haha...but i contribute lot to THE ROBINSONS too....i bought some ficial product

gosh...this is my first time...for previous me..never waste one cent on this stuff....but i'm changed...people do change when time goes on right?back to me and him...that day he asked a lot about dating stuff...this and that...we talked a lot...seriously,he is a good guy but then i sure that between us dont have any chemical reaction(u know what i mean right?)u know why?because he is too good...he never do any bad things...never hang out late...gosh...unbelievable...honestly...for me...i like bad guy....of course not those gangster ok?i like those guy who can play with me and my crazy frens for sure...i dont know how to explain...anyway...i like some playful and funny guy..not those serious dude..hehe....after all the happy moments, is time for me to face all my assignment again...when i went back to condo...alone at room...the feel suck!!~~i dont like to stay alone...feel like wanna to cry that time...but i not dare to call my parent...cause i dont want them to worry about me...end up..i chat with my sis...as what i said...when i was there i hope to be here....but now i miss there again...it is a complicated feeling anyway....now...what i wanna to do is to study hard...i want to fulfill all my dreams....the future i want...i must accomplished it!!~~EE1...wait for me...i'm going to conquer u!!~~~gambateh

another meaningless weekend!~

saturday...saturday....saturday....it should be a happy day for everyone..hang out with friends....relax...no stress...just fun..but why i feel so down today?even my cousin was curious about it....usually i will talk non stop(i'm damn talkactive)...but today i look so lost...got no idea what to do...what to say...what happen to me?seriously,i dont know too!~~this coming tuesday is my dearest mummy bday...feel bad that i cant celebrate with her...i used to plan where the dinner will be...what present for her...but this year...everything changed!~she will celebrate without me...will it be big difference for her??so wonder.....oh no!!~~SPM result will be release soon...damn worry...i scare i will get suck result....everyone told me that SPM not important for me since i already doing my college...but the pressure from myself...and the scary comparison between friends....is killing me...i dont want to disappoint my mum...and even myself...haiz....may god bless me...on the 12th...i can get good news from my mum....god,please.....

oh no!~~~supper again

argh....just lost a bit weight...then go supper again!!~~oh no....cant like that!!~~i dont want to gain weight again!!~~haha....using sony ericsson now...exchange with friend...sony really have a nice design...thin enough...but the function cant compare with nokia...anyway...n80 is still the best for me...haha...say about my college life...finally i found some crazy gang here....already do some "LAP" things....enjoy take picture without care about the surrounding....noisy enough...is really happy to know all of them...love u all!!~muackzzzz

college life rock!!~~

long time didnt update my blog...since he left us...i got no mood to update my blog...cause everytime i view my blog...then i see his face...i miss so so much!!~~dont know how his life there?is it very peaceful and full of pretty angel beside him?i bet him miss us so much too!!~~anyway...life still need to go on....i moved into the sun-U residencce..having my own life...this time is really my own!~~~i start to enjoy it so so much...i spent more time in college..with all my friends...get to know many friends!!~~i so used to it....i thought i will miss home so much but turn out i don't...surprise?now,i sit at the foyer with all my friends...we're discussing our applics...oh ya...applics seriously suck!!~~but anyway...i cant drop it...i must conquer it!!~~by the way,i had fun and crazy time with all my friends during the bloody boring malaysian study...we took funny pictures!!~~alright....stop here...i got to get back to my applics...if not everything will screw up!!~~ciao!!~~

please pray together!!!~~

finally...the operation had miraculous success...now have to wait he awake...if not....he'll be comma forever...Tonny,can u hear me?all of us are waiting for u...promise me u must be brave and strong...we all believe u can overcome all the tough time..the operation already done...now use all ur power to open ur eyes...IF U THINK U CAN, U CAN!!!Ton, please...u must wake up!!~~i miss u so much!!~~

god please!!~he doesn't deserve this!!

Tonny and me on 08-12-2007

Today i heard a news...my friend had serious accident...when i heard that, i got nothing to react..i was stunned..i just cant believe this thing happens to my friend..he is a good guy...he always be gentlemen to girl...he is caring and funny guy...why?why god will let this happen to him?it's unfair...he really doesn't deserve this...god pls...dont bring him away from us...he's just 17 yrs old...he still got lot of things to do...he haven fulfill his dream..he haven enjoy his life...please....bring him back to our side...i cant control my tears again...my brain keep popping out all those happy moments we spent together...we laugh...we share...it's just wonderful...please...god....Tonny, u have to be brave!!~~all of us are always by ur side....to support u!!~~we're always here for u!!~~may god bless him!!~~

feeling suck!!!~~

This morning i wake up at 6am to catch the stupid bus...then i went to college...until 6pm i arrive home...is 12 hours....when i woke up, i saw no one...when i arrive home...still see no one....it feels like the whole world left u alone...the feeling is really suck...i hate to be alone...i need someone always stay beside me when i need someone..is it that hard to fulfill?god...please show me some direction...so in mood to have a crazy night...but because of no transport so cant go clubbing with friend...ruin everything...D,i want a car right now!!~~as soon as possible...having bad home sick right now...i want to talk to my parent...i want to argue with my bro....i want to sleep at the living room with TV noise...i want to drive my car...i want to have a drink with friends....what such easy things...is so hard for me now?is it a challenge so that i can grow up?am i not independent enough?my tears is out of control...i miss my home!!~~~

one week end again!!~

miss selfridge's coat

adidas shoe for my stupid sis!!~~

hell no....one week end again...why i feel like i did nothing for this few weeks...today went to shopping..i have to apologize to my dad...i spent rm500 in one and half hour....D,sorry for spending the money that u earn so hard just in a while...haha...i saw a lot of nice stuff today...got to take all of it on this coming wed again..public holiday...holy shit...tml is Monday...school day again....i hate waiting and doing nothing at college....wasting my time...:(

damn boring!!~~

gosh...today is suck...i stay at home and sit in front of my baby laptop...since i wake up till now..cant u imagine it?i want to shop!!born to shop---->that's me!!!the whole day doing nothing is really a disaster...keep eating...omG...i dont want to gain any weight!!i dont want to stay at home....set me free!!!i want to fly here and there freely just like a bird...no one control u...u're the one who makes the decision..how nice is that feel man?haha...dont u think so?suddenly so hope to have a bf...at least got someone to hang out with...i miss all my frens...if they're around..i just need to give them a call then everything settled...but somehow i enjoy my single life...no need to worry anything...no that big "responsible" to a certain person...haha..can check out all the hot guy around..that the benefit for single person huh?

my first page

well, i know about blogging long time ago..but just never try it out...now is 2am..I'm facing with my laptop alone at a place that not belong to me...the feeling is really complicated...what i having now is all the things i want last time...i hope to have my own brand new life...no parent's nagging, no hater, even no secondary school life....but however, when i own all of this, i just realised that i miss my home so so much...my family, my friends..all the fantasy memories that i had...it's just unbelievable...but what can we do?that's life huh?we got to go on our own way...be responsible to it...and to enjoy it...but sometime it's hard huh?back to some happy things...I'm having my college life..when i first stepped in...i can feel that I'm big girl now...got to take care of myself...cant just be baby girl like what i did when i with my lovely parents...i tried my best to do the best...to make everyone happy and be ready for my future...i want an extremely bright future...i want to have a good life...that all i want...whatever, it just a beginning of my life!!~~cheer it up!~~impossible is just nothing!~~